Sunday, December 30, 2012

Looking back on this year of growth, with love.

    2012 has been a year of growth and change for me. Looking back on even the "bad" things or the challenges I have to do it with a smile. This year started with us outgrowing our old home and moving into a new home that has been a source of great joy this year. I can see us moving on to a permanent and larger home for 2013. I will look at this home with so many fond memories when that time comes. We had an amazing birth experience that brought me into my own as a mom and woman. We brought our newest and last bundle of chilled out, sweet, giggly joy home this year. I have pushed myself, my body, and my spirit to new limits this year that will only continue for 2013. J and I have grown stronger as a couple this year. I became a school mom and a sports mom this year. I have learned so much about who I want to be, who I am as myself, a wife, and a mother. I am finally changing my thinking and realizing how much love and happiness I deserve, that thinking can only bubble over to everyone around me. We have reconnected with old friends, made new friends and let go of "friends" that were not real friends. I turned 30 and while my party was not at all what I wanted it to be I know my 30s will be amazing. I lost my a friend and guide this year. While she was "only a cat" to some, she had been a confidant to me for more than half my life and she knew that this was the year to leave and let me grow more on my own. She will always be remembered and greatly missed. We welcomed a new friend and guide into our lives about a month after Ty passed. Luna has so much similar energy, she is so bright, sweet and fun. Looking back on how quickly the year pasted, there are so many things I can think of but can't put into words.
     My hopes and resolutions for 2013 are to write and journal more. To keep a journal of the boys' milestones and funny sayings to remember. To get to a healthy weight and feel confident in my body again. To improve on being loving, patient and kind. To practice more random acts of kindness and gratitude. To be more adventurous. To make time for myself, time for yoga, time for meditating. To start fulfilling a vision I have for where I want to be in our lives. I want to let go of the past, heal, forgive myself and others and move forward. I'm sure I will think of more memories and more resolutions as this week goes on. Right now I can't help but feel an excitable energy for what's to come and bless the past with a smile, knowing each year is new experiences and ways to change and evolve. Happy 2013 to everyone. I hope this year treats you with love and happiness and you can look back on the positives of 2012 with a smile as well.

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